Whoopee.. it's been one hell of a month!
So many things are happening during March and well one thing i can pretty much say about it is, its all part of a learning process.
I learned a lot during these past few months tbh, the good and the bad.
I learned how to love again
I learned how to let go
Well i pretty much got in touch with my emotional side that's been neglected for too long, for too many years since i've been focusing on accomplishing my goals.
I pretty much study for the whole day and go on kpop twitter for fun, it was good times, i make very good friends on twitter and they've been such a great help to me and i also try my best to help them when they are in need.. well emotional support at best since we're all like 3497328462358 miles away from each other.
I don't know how many days its been since the break up, its been 3 weeks i guess? i lost track of time.
I kinda lose interest in having a relationship, at least not right now. Like, its kinda too much you know? And well deep inside i don't feel like i'm ever gonna be good enough for someone to love me unconditionally. So yeah no thanks.
Some boys did try to hit me up tho, but no matter how hard they've tried.. i just can't seem to feel anything. I kinda feel bad, one of them really went all out and i cold-heartedly rejected him.
Well, i told him that "friends" is all we're ever gonna be and he doesn't get it. So, sorry but i'm not sorry. I drew the line between us from the very start, hombre, your fault for stepping over it.
Yeah so boys and relationships are so far up in my "to-do list" right now.
I wanna focus on my paper first, i really really want to graduate this year, hopefully this September. I have a lot of things i want to achieve.. so much things i wanna do and im excited just by imagining it!
I know.. i know.. its not going to be all sunshine and rainbows, but i'm excited. I'm excited to open up a new chapter of my life.
Recently i hung out with my friends in this coffee shop in Dago and my friend said that one of her friend is applying to SA as the cabin crew even though she's a FTI major in ITB. I gotta say tho, i was kinda shocked because i happen to know this friend and her being a stewardess? seems like a waste of a very huge potential, well she's been smart her whole life.. but being a stewardess is no easy job either, i know. I just thought she could've done so much better? Idk.
I admit, i got curious alright, i checked the requirements of being a cabin crew in SA and also the salary, now i get why she wanted the job. Lol.
It pays very well, very very well i must say. And i gotta say, I am interested;p
I mean with the salary, i could pay for my master's degree by myself.
And one of the requirements is: must be willing to live in Singapore. Bitch, i am more than willing to live in singapore, sign me the fuck up lmao.
So yeah i've been focusing on bettering myself. I'm going on a diet and been working out DAILY.. i think i still need to be slimmer in figure,i think i got the height requirement pretty well. And good level of english proficiency.. i need to take TOEFL&IELTS.. or i guess just one of them, but i'm excited.
Once i graduated i am planning to apply as a cabin crew in SA first and see how it goes.
My life long dream is to be the General Secretary of the United Nations tbh. Lmao. Amen.. but it takes a lot of patience and i need lots LOTS of experience to get there. I want to achieve so much.. i want to be the minister of foreign affairs.. or at least work for them. I want to own my own law firm.. i want to travel the world.. i want to live in France with my husband (LMAO, husband.. let's see) and have bunch of beautiful kids... or in Singapore and we can have our yearly vacation to France.. i want to achieve it all!! Just thinking about it all puts a smile on my face. I don't mind working hard, i've always been a fighter driven with determination my whole life, i will do it no matter how hard it is, if it gets me one step closer to achieving my dreams.
Like. there is so much of the world i want to see and experience. Being a young adult with a strict parents, i dont feel like ive been living my life according to my choices. But its all okay, family comes first. And i really really want to take my parents for a trip abroad, all expenses on me, they can have all the delicious food the world have to offer, visits the most beautiful places in the word, take beautiful pictures in the most beautiful places.. they deserve it, they deserve THE VERY BEST THINGS THE WORLD HAVE TO OFFER OKAY. And i will make sure they got it, i will work my ass off for it.
Okay so i want to make my parents proud of me and just to really thank them for all the years and money they've spent on raising me. They've done a very good job, now it's my turn to pay it all back to you guys. Just wait for this rebellious kid of yours to take you guys on a world trip, Mak! Pak! hehe.
One day, one day, i really hope that there is someone out there who can really love me for who i am. I want love that is unconditional, understanding and challenging. I want to compete with my partner, i want to have the most fun and do stupid things together with my partner, i want to build a relationship based on trust and love towards each other, i want to be in a relationship where i can really be myself without ever doubting for a second that my partner would leave me, i want to be in a relationship where we can share about pretty much everything.. tell me your sorrows, tell me your dreams, tell me your fears, tell me everything, and i shall do the same.
But as of right now, what i really... really want is...... a Peanut Butter Maverick smoothie bowl from Lula.
Damn, i'm hungry.
So many things are happening during March and well one thing i can pretty much say about it is, its all part of a learning process.
I learned a lot during these past few months tbh, the good and the bad.
I learned how to love again
I learned how to let go
Well i pretty much got in touch with my emotional side that's been neglected for too long, for too many years since i've been focusing on accomplishing my goals.
I pretty much study for the whole day and go on kpop twitter for fun, it was good times, i make very good friends on twitter and they've been such a great help to me and i also try my best to help them when they are in need.. well emotional support at best since we're all like 3497328462358 miles away from each other.
I don't know how many days its been since the break up, its been 3 weeks i guess? i lost track of time.
I kinda lose interest in having a relationship, at least not right now. Like, its kinda too much you know? And well deep inside i don't feel like i'm ever gonna be good enough for someone to love me unconditionally. So yeah no thanks.
Some boys did try to hit me up tho, but no matter how hard they've tried.. i just can't seem to feel anything. I kinda feel bad, one of them really went all out and i cold-heartedly rejected him.
Well, i told him that "friends" is all we're ever gonna be and he doesn't get it. So, sorry but i'm not sorry. I drew the line between us from the very start, hombre, your fault for stepping over it.
Yeah so boys and relationships are so far up in my "to-do list" right now.
I wanna focus on my paper first, i really really want to graduate this year, hopefully this September. I have a lot of things i want to achieve.. so much things i wanna do and im excited just by imagining it!
I know.. i know.. its not going to be all sunshine and rainbows, but i'm excited. I'm excited to open up a new chapter of my life.
Recently i hung out with my friends in this coffee shop in Dago and my friend said that one of her friend is applying to SA as the cabin crew even though she's a FTI major in ITB. I gotta say tho, i was kinda shocked because i happen to know this friend and her being a stewardess? seems like a waste of a very huge potential, well she's been smart her whole life.. but being a stewardess is no easy job either, i know. I just thought she could've done so much better? Idk.
I admit, i got curious alright, i checked the requirements of being a cabin crew in SA and also the salary, now i get why she wanted the job. Lol.
It pays very well, very very well i must say. And i gotta say, I am interested;p
I mean with the salary, i could pay for my master's degree by myself.
And one of the requirements is: must be willing to live in Singapore. Bitch, i am more than willing to live in singapore, sign me the fuck up lmao.
So yeah i've been focusing on bettering myself. I'm going on a diet and been working out DAILY.. i think i still need to be slimmer in figure,i think i got the height requirement pretty well. And good level of english proficiency.. i need to take TOEFL&IELTS.. or i guess just one of them, but i'm excited.
Once i graduated i am planning to apply as a cabin crew in SA first and see how it goes.
My life long dream is to be the General Secretary of the United Nations tbh. Lmao. Amen.. but it takes a lot of patience and i need lots LOTS of experience to get there. I want to achieve so much.. i want to be the minister of foreign affairs.. or at least work for them. I want to own my own law firm.. i want to travel the world.. i want to live in France with my husband (LMAO, husband.. let's see) and have bunch of beautiful kids... or in Singapore and we can have our yearly vacation to France.. i want to achieve it all!! Just thinking about it all puts a smile on my face. I don't mind working hard, i've always been a fighter driven with determination my whole life, i will do it no matter how hard it is, if it gets me one step closer to achieving my dreams.
Like. there is so much of the world i want to see and experience. Being a young adult with a strict parents, i dont feel like ive been living my life according to my choices. But its all okay, family comes first. And i really really want to take my parents for a trip abroad, all expenses on me, they can have all the delicious food the world have to offer, visits the most beautiful places in the word, take beautiful pictures in the most beautiful places.. they deserve it, they deserve THE VERY BEST THINGS THE WORLD HAVE TO OFFER OKAY. And i will make sure they got it, i will work my ass off for it.
Okay so i want to make my parents proud of me and just to really thank them for all the years and money they've spent on raising me. They've done a very good job, now it's my turn to pay it all back to you guys. Just wait for this rebellious kid of yours to take you guys on a world trip, Mak! Pak! hehe.
One day, one day, i really hope that there is someone out there who can really love me for who i am. I want love that is unconditional, understanding and challenging. I want to compete with my partner, i want to have the most fun and do stupid things together with my partner, i want to build a relationship based on trust and love towards each other, i want to be in a relationship where i can really be myself without ever doubting for a second that my partner would leave me, i want to be in a relationship where we can share about pretty much everything.. tell me your sorrows, tell me your dreams, tell me your fears, tell me everything, and i shall do the same.
But as of right now, what i really... really want is...... a Peanut Butter Maverick smoothie bowl from Lula.
Damn, i'm hungry.
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