Having a job, i realize how precious time actually is.
To have time to work out, to prepare for your favorite breakfast, to do your hair, to do absolutely nothing and watch youtube all day..
Time is a privilege and i have been wasting it.
Being a corporate lawyer, if i could say so myself.. is time consuming.
I work from 9AM until late night, if i'm lucky i'll be done in around 8 or 9PM but mostly i left work around 10PM and one time i even left at 12AM..
Time is so precious to me and i just want to make the most out of the time that i have.
But time, its such a fragile thing. It only lasted for 24 hours and 24 hours is just not enough.
I wake up early and go to work, eat lunch, go to work, eat dinner, and work again. I have no time to really just pamper myself and do the things i usually do to just calm my nerves.. to just "chill", man i dont even have time to wash my hair and let it dry.
Which got me wondering, until when will i keep this crazy work hours?
But i do love my job, still.. its starting to take my life and energy away from me.
I break backs and tire myself the fuck out just to make sure every relationships i have maintained until today stays afloat..
Is it hard?
Fuck yes. I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown every damn time.
But well. Gotta count your blessings. Living the law firm life is not for everyone, not everyone is cut out for the job and i am blessed to be able to do the things i love as my occupation. Please let me stay humble God, so i shall not whine about my tiredness all the time..
Anyways, that's that.
I've been.. contemplating about what's best.
I feel so exhausted and it is not helping, the constant abuse is not helping.
Dear Lord, please give me strength to go on and to cut off toxic people from my life.
I am on the verge of a mental breakdown every damn time.
Merry fucking christmas though
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