Its been a while since i last blogged, hello! i missed you!
Karena kebetulan dari jam 9 malam tadi udah pulang dari kantor, jadi punya banyak waktu deh. Kadang lucu juga kalau dipikir-pikir, di kantor ingin cepet pulang dan pas udah pulang gak tau mau ngapain.
So i decided, why not write? It's been a while.
So here's the summary of my life for the past few months..
1. Fell in love.
Yep! I fell in love with somebody. A very special man indeed. I know what you're thinking.. i just broke up and suddenly i'm in love with another man again that fast.. shut it, you can't control feelings. when it happens, it happens.
"Met" him on tinder (yes, i use tinder. what about it?) and we talked.. and talked.. and it turns into a phone call.. an hour.. six hours.. its been a crazy roller coaster ride, right Y?
And guess what, he has a girlfriend (AGAIN! what?! is this my eternal curse or something?)
What's with guys not telling a girl that they have a boyfriend when they encountered us at the FIRST place?
Like, it should be the first words that they spat out.
So the convo will go like
R: Hey
Y: Hey, i have a girlfriend whom i love very much, and even though i like talking to you but i don't want to risk having some kind of feelings for you, therefore let's stop. I hope you understand. sorry.
Then none of this would have happened.
2. Heartbreak
We first talked on April, and we never really stopped talking actually. But it's been a month since i last saw you in July.
April, May, June, July. We spent 4 months "together".
Since the first time stupid things happened, until we did it again.. and again.. and again..
Until that night happened.
If i could turn back time, i would go back to that night and i will not even going to meet you. Because then maybe i could still be talking to you. Maybe we could still have our random late night conversations, our random late night rendezvous.
But of course, at the other side, I am glad that it ended. However, why can't I shake off the feeling that you, might be the one that got away?
Life is unfair. She's lucky she met you first.
3. Recovery
Shaky road of recovery! Phew.
It takes a lot of time (and alcohol) to get over you!
Even up until now, I believe that no one can actually replace you. You will hold a special place in my heart.
But what i have now is acceptance. I have accepted the fact that you were never mine from the first place. No matter how much we wanted to be together, it will never happen.
You belong with her.
And i (after long crying hours and glasses of alcohol) have accepted that.
4. Move On
Moving on is never easy. So what do i do? I keep myself busy.
Life has been grand and confusing at the same time.
I hope i am strong enough to go through it all.
Karena kebetulan dari jam 9 malam tadi udah pulang dari kantor, jadi punya banyak waktu deh. Kadang lucu juga kalau dipikir-pikir, di kantor ingin cepet pulang dan pas udah pulang gak tau mau ngapain.
So i decided, why not write? It's been a while.
So here's the summary of my life for the past few months..
1. Fell in love.
Yep! I fell in love with somebody. A very special man indeed. I know what you're thinking.. i just broke up and suddenly i'm in love with another man again that fast.. shut it, you can't control feelings. when it happens, it happens.
"Met" him on tinder (yes, i use tinder. what about it?) and we talked.. and talked.. and it turns into a phone call.. an hour.. six hours.. its been a crazy roller coaster ride, right Y?
And guess what, he has a girlfriend (AGAIN! what?! is this my eternal curse or something?)
What's with guys not telling a girl that they have a boyfriend when they encountered us at the FIRST place?
Like, it should be the first words that they spat out.
So the convo will go like
R: Hey
Y: Hey, i have a girlfriend whom i love very much, and even though i like talking to you but i don't want to risk having some kind of feelings for you, therefore let's stop. I hope you understand. sorry.
Then none of this would have happened.
2. Heartbreak
We first talked on April, and we never really stopped talking actually. But it's been a month since i last saw you in July.
April, May, June, July. We spent 4 months "together".
Since the first time stupid things happened, until we did it again.. and again.. and again..
Until that night happened.
If i could turn back time, i would go back to that night and i will not even going to meet you. Because then maybe i could still be talking to you. Maybe we could still have our random late night conversations, our random late night rendezvous.
But of course, at the other side, I am glad that it ended. However, why can't I shake off the feeling that you, might be the one that got away?
Life is unfair. She's lucky she met you first.
3. Recovery
Shaky road of recovery! Phew.
It takes a lot of time (and alcohol) to get over you!
Even up until now, I believe that no one can actually replace you. You will hold a special place in my heart.
But what i have now is acceptance. I have accepted the fact that you were never mine from the first place. No matter how much we wanted to be together, it will never happen.
You belong with her.
And i (after long crying hours and glasses of alcohol) have accepted that.
4. Move On
Moving on is never easy. So what do i do? I keep myself busy.
- I applied for a scholarship in the UK so i've been busy writing my essays and applying to the universities i want,
- planning to take the IELTS test on October so i have been busy practicing and preparing since i want to achieve the best score possible (Hopefully, a 9) because I don't want to waste the money (it was 2,9 million rupiah, mind you!)
- took the PKPA class to get my PERADI license (real lawyer in the making, hehe)
- busy updating my CV to get ready to move to another law firm
- discussing business (really good one too) plans with my friends.
Life has been grand and confusing at the same time.
I hope i am strong enough to go through it all.
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