Halo!
I'm actually still at the office but I have finished all of my work for the day. I am currently waiting for the she-boss to leave the office because that's the "norm" of this workplace, apparently. The norm that I will always fail to understand.. because leaving the office before your boss has left the office is not a sign of being disrespectful; i have nothing to do anymore! Then why should I waste my time sitting around in the office, blogging (lol) or binge-watching youtube, or reading dumb articles (re: all the unproductive things you could think of as you wait for your boss to leave)? So unproductive! I could have gone home, take a warm shower, do some work out, and rest so that i will have enough energy for work tomorrow.
All in the name of not being "disrespectful"
Lol.
Miss me with that bullshit.
It has been quite a while since i write anything on this blog. I have my own journal now so i pretty much write there all the time. Then why am I still here? Lol. Well, i just read a really good blog and it inspired me to write in my own blog. Not that I'm going to write anything inspirational though.. It just encouraged me to write in my blog.
Anyways.. (i get distracted quite easily)
I just want to write about the things that have happened to me in the past (almost) 2 months in 2019. So here goes!
I admit, the new year new me bullshit got into me, BUT in a really good way. I sit back and i try to picture my 2018 that if i may, would sum up in 1 simple word: MESSY. My 2018 was so messy. I lost track of so many things, and the saddest thing is.. i lost track of myself.
How do you lost track of yourself, you ask?
Simple. You don't know who you are anymore. You don't know your worth, you don't know what you want, you don't know what you need, you don't care about anything anymore.
So the first thing i do on the new yearbesides drinking is to find myself back.
What do I want?
Who am I?
What can I do to make my life less miserable?
And the answer isalcohol. Lol ok no, so I start to write more things.
Lol, how can writing actually help me to find myself back, you ask? Simple. You write about anything. You write about how fucking shitty your day was. You write about the movie you just watched. You write about the book you just read. And by writing, i mean in any kind of media.. I mostly "write" stuff on my insta story because instagram is currently the social media that i have been hooked to (and currently trying to spend less time on it....)
And it helps. On the process of writing, i began to identify myself. I know what message i want to convey, i know what "image" i want to everyone to me see me as. See? I have learned that I am manipulative (LOL) but okay okay.. I mean i learned a lot. I learned about the things that made me interested, what scares me, what makes me happy, and it's been such a fun process.
I write about my goals as well. Unlike others with their annual resolutions, i write a monthly resolutions instead. You know, so I can keep track of my growth (and failure) in a short period of time compared to the annual one. And it has been such a fun experience and journey! But knowing the ambitious woman that i am, i don't set easy goals lol so it brings me much greater joy to tick the boxes when i am able to accomplish one of my goals. There are so many boxes that have not yet been ticked but as i am able to keep track what i have accomplished and what i have not yet accomplish, i simply move the goal that i set to be accomplished next month.
I started working out, everyday! It all started from the blogilates 30 day 100 abs challenge. Oh dear god it is killing me! but i manage to lose a bit weight from it, my core strength has increased and now i kind of feel shitty if i don't workout so i try to do it everyday. It became a habit. Kudos to myself for this one.
I also have my own financial planner. I keep track of every expenses, from the gojek cost from my place to the office to the amount of money i spent eating satay in front of the office for the dinner. It helped me a lot in terms of budgeting. I started saving (in a more serious way because i always fail at this). I put my money in my brother's bank account so that I don't have any access to it. It's been going on really great on January but in this month.. wheeeew i spent a lot of money. Mainly because i know i will receive a huge bonus (which i have:p sobat miskin? can't relate! lol) so i started to spend recklessly. I bought a concert ticket, planned a trip to Kuala Lumpur.. lol that's basically it:/ but it seriously damaged saving account. Well.. to be fair i only started saving seriously on January, of course my saving would be "damaged".
I read a lot more of books now. It really expanded my horizon on a lot of things; love, money, life, art. I am also weirdly obsessed with Vincent Van Gogh.. mainly because i feel like i can relate to him. An artist struggling for his sanity... count me the fuck in.
It has been quite an enjoyable months in 2019. I am excited for the future as well. As long as i don't get depressed halfway and kill myself, i guess. Lol
So, I have been trying to grow to become the best version of myself. I am so proud of myself for that. Here's to the rest of 2019.. fucking bring it, universe!
I'm actually still at the office but I have finished all of my work for the day. I am currently waiting for the she-boss to leave the office because that's the "norm" of this workplace, apparently. The norm that I will always fail to understand.. because leaving the office before your boss has left the office is not a sign of being disrespectful; i have nothing to do anymore! Then why should I waste my time sitting around in the office, blogging (lol) or binge-watching youtube, or reading dumb articles (re: all the unproductive things you could think of as you wait for your boss to leave)? So unproductive! I could have gone home, take a warm shower, do some work out, and rest so that i will have enough energy for work tomorrow.
All in the name of not being "disrespectful"
Lol.
Miss me with that bullshit.
It has been quite a while since i write anything on this blog. I have my own journal now so i pretty much write there all the time. Then why am I still here? Lol. Well, i just read a really good blog and it inspired me to write in my own blog. Not that I'm going to write anything inspirational though.. It just encouraged me to write in my blog.
Anyways.. (i get distracted quite easily)
I just want to write about the things that have happened to me in the past (almost) 2 months in 2019. So here goes!
I admit, the new year new me bullshit got into me, BUT in a really good way. I sit back and i try to picture my 2018 that if i may, would sum up in 1 simple word: MESSY. My 2018 was so messy. I lost track of so many things, and the saddest thing is.. i lost track of myself.
How do you lost track of yourself, you ask?
Simple. You don't know who you are anymore. You don't know your worth, you don't know what you want, you don't know what you need, you don't care about anything anymore.
So the first thing i do on the new year
What do I want?
Who am I?
What can I do to make my life less miserable?
And the answer is
Lol, how can writing actually help me to find myself back, you ask? Simple. You write about anything. You write about how fucking shitty your day was. You write about the movie you just watched. You write about the book you just read. And by writing, i mean in any kind of media.. I mostly "write" stuff on my insta story because instagram is currently the social media that i have been hooked to (and currently trying to spend less time on it....)
And it helps. On the process of writing, i began to identify myself. I know what message i want to convey, i know what "image" i want to everyone to me see me as. See? I have learned that I am manipulative (LOL) but okay okay.. I mean i learned a lot. I learned about the things that made me interested, what scares me, what makes me happy, and it's been such a fun process.
I write about my goals as well. Unlike others with their annual resolutions, i write a monthly resolutions instead. You know, so I can keep track of my growth (and failure) in a short period of time compared to the annual one. And it has been such a fun experience and journey! But knowing the ambitious woman that i am, i don't set easy goals lol so it brings me much greater joy to tick the boxes when i am able to accomplish one of my goals. There are so many boxes that have not yet been ticked but as i am able to keep track what i have accomplished and what i have not yet accomplish, i simply move the goal that i set to be accomplished next month.
I started working out, everyday! It all started from the blogilates 30 day 100 abs challenge. Oh dear god it is killing me! but i manage to lose a bit weight from it, my core strength has increased and now i kind of feel shitty if i don't workout so i try to do it everyday. It became a habit. Kudos to myself for this one.
I also have my own financial planner. I keep track of every expenses, from the gojek cost from my place to the office to the amount of money i spent eating satay in front of the office for the dinner. It helped me a lot in terms of budgeting. I started saving (in a more serious way because i always fail at this). I put my money in my brother's bank account so that I don't have any access to it. It's been going on really great on January but in this month.. wheeeew i spent a lot of money. Mainly because i know i will receive a huge bonus (which i have:p sobat miskin? can't relate! lol) so i started to spend recklessly. I bought a concert ticket, planned a trip to Kuala Lumpur.. lol that's basically it:/ but it seriously damaged saving account. Well.. to be fair i only started saving seriously on January, of course my saving would be "damaged".
I read a lot more of books now. It really expanded my horizon on a lot of things; love, money, life, art. I am also weirdly obsessed with Vincent Van Gogh.. mainly because i feel like i can relate to him. An artist struggling for his sanity... count me the fuck in.
It has been quite an enjoyable months in 2019. I am excited for the future as well. As long as i don't get depressed halfway and kill myself, i guess. Lol
So, I have been trying to grow to become the best version of myself. I am so proud of myself for that. Here's to the rest of 2019.. fucking bring it, universe!
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